Some of you are still searching for Enlightenment,
while other could just
settle for the truth - whatever it turns out to be. Many
people have
attended church for the majority of their lives and have
never once had a
so-called Spiritual Experience.
I have been searching for answers and enlightenment
for the majority of
my life, and despite what I have thus experienced, my
search still continues.
The most spiritually ,mentally terrifying and trying
time of my life was
just 7 brief days in September of 1988 in the
Washington, D.C. area while
working as a Warehouse Stockclerk. For 7 brief days, I
was spiritually
possessed by a demon or in a sense taken captive by
the "DARK SIDE". This was
the one time in my life that everything I ever was taught
and ever believed in
came in question including reality, and I have never
before been so terrified.
It began one night with a bone-chilling cold in the
peak of summer (very
strange), like no cold feeling experience I've ever felt
before and I had spent
time in Iowa and Minnesota just prior to this. This is
one signature that I
have since used to identify with "PURE EVIL"...
Woke up in a cold sweat, shivering and freezing in
the summer time and it
was about an average comfortable temperature in the
room before I fell asleep
earlier and the Air Conditioning wasn't running, and I
was somewhat aware of
a presence in the room with me. It was unlike any
feeling I've ever had
before. The presence seemed to watched me from a
distance before moving
closer to almost tower above me. I felt all this but
couldn't see anything
but the physical stuff in the room. I moved and it
followed me. Panic set
in as I tried quoting a bible scripture that I taken to
memory in my
younger days, and the presence began to take the
form of a invisible wall of some sort
and almost seemed to push against me like an
enormous weight and that feeling
seemed to linger and till finally I was so exhausted that
I just went back to
bed and ignored it.
Morning brought a feeling of disconnection as if I was
there but wasn't
really there and I just wasn't myself at all, and I almost
had to "THINK"
before I did anything as though I had forgotten who I
was. I went to work
and that was when the experience of "DRAGGING
ALONG" began after only working
an hour or so. I was totally exhausted and could
barely stand on my own 2
feet and found myself constantly leaning on something
for support. I made it
thru a couple of days like that before confusion,
disorientation began to set
in, until finally I began hearing voices. Most of the
time I was alone and
it seemed like a radio station broadcasting in my head.
The voices over-road
even the TV and radio, and finally all I could pray for
was "UTTER" silence,
and that never came unless I managed to fall asleep. I
found myself walking
in circles, and actually paying detailed attention to the
voices. I was slowly
loosing my grip on reality and there were times when I
just couldn't decide what
was real and what wasn't. The climax came when the
sound of my own voice
appeared to me to change to that of a "FEMALE".
The location where this happened and how it
happened suggests that it was all rigged because of
how badly battered i was mentally and physically so i
pretty much accepted anything.
This happened at the auto parts warehouse where i
was working where a black guy there who worked the
counter and also supposedly worked elsewhere as a
security guard handed me a speaker or blow horn and
told me to speak into it - my voice came out as
FEMALE there... and regular elsewhere and he
steadily
tried to convince me that my voice had changed - the
speaker was rigged of course and everyone gathered
around and had a laugh... the guy was always testing
me one way or another and that day he got me... and i
guess he was famous because no one would ever
figure out his trick and how he rigged the speaker....
(a little birdie told me of course after all these years)
That was the "ICING" on the cake so to speak and
everything went downhill from then on.
(My voice really never changed - it was all
psychological since I sounded normal to myself without
the speaker - but i was just dreadfully fearful of
speaking to anyone at that point and constantly testing
my voice from time to time with tape recorders and
other people - i saw a psychiatrist for many months
later after my breakdown before i could speak to
anyone again - i still see a psychiatrist today but only
for the "voices" which still haunt me 24/7 as a result -
quite a change). i had already grown up with a speech
problem prior to this and this did not help matters any.
Prior to this or maybe close, i remember the people i
worked with trying to get me to talk to a new girl that
came to work there and i was supposed to ask her
what her phone number was and things like that...
We would meet after work sometimes at the
warehouse managers place but the party wouldn't
start till after i left because they thought i was just
a kid or underage.
Some of my co-workers would come to me
sometimes saying you left early and missed out - yep
i got tired of just sitting around.... They would pop
out the xxx rated movies after i left.....
Anyway, outside a line of people waited for me when
it was time to go home as i walked up the side street.
i was almost at the corner when a little child met
me and looked up almost in amazement and then
walked away. i was told (by the same birdie) that
the child couldn't describe what he saw and just
made up something - he reported it back to the
pretty fortune
teller woman i had met around that time for my first
psychic reading - she got the wrong message of
course, whatever it was supposed to be and
everything
started progressively getting worse for me as time
went on....
I felt very self conscious about sounding like someone
else and wasn't sure if it was real or
whether I was just hallucinating till everything just
came to a crashing halt
and I couldn't get out of bed one morning, wasn't sure
who or what I was, and
what I was supposed to be doing.
I was rushed to the hospital where I kept running
away from for some reason.
I did notice during that time that my eyesite greatly
improved and I had better
than 20/20 vision - another strange thing. I finally had
to be restrained
and that was when the voices got worse and very
terrifying. All I could hear
were screams of people being tortured - so I thought,
but yet every one around
me (Doctors, etc.) seemed to act normal. During all
this time there was still
the feeling of disconnection, something that never
seemed to leave me.
Finally, I was rolled out on a stretcher where I was
restrained into a
waiting ambulance - still terrrified, and arrived
sometime later at where I
would later know to be a "MENTAL HOSPITAL". After a
brief checking where
people just seemed to look at me strangely, I was
released into a hall into a
crowd of other people. Some just looked at me,
others paced around in
circles, and others just did nothing. All I could do was
huddle down on the
floor too terrified to speak or move, and so began my 7
days of HELL...
I began receiving daily medication, and noticed that
the feeling of
disconnection would come and go, but the bone-
chilling cold returned. The
presence returned also but this time it felt like more
than one and there was
a strange sound which would accompany the
visitations.
These were what I came to identify as "DEMONS".
During this time, I was
somehow coming to grips with my situation as well as
reality as I knew it
since the voices had stopped and I could think and
rest. Finally, there was
one last visitation and one which forever changed
everything I ever believed
in.
I faced the presence above and acknowledge it as
what it was - a demon,
"flapping of wings" and
refused to let it or them continue to hound me. I
imagined white light while
simultaneously quoting that only scripture from the
Bible that I had taken
to memory.....JESUS CHRIST IS MY LORD AND
SAVIOR....
All of a sudden there was screaming and screeching
that sounded like
something that was not of this Earth and it sent chills
down my spine just to
hear it. I continued quoting, and the presence seem to
lift itself and distance
itself from me till I could feel it no more. Recovery was
quick from that
moment on. The feeling of disconnection, bone-
chilling cold never returned and
the visitations ended. My perception of reality, the
world, GOD, the Devil,
and whatever else there was was forever changed and
challenged, and to this
day I never felt the same again. I had experienced the
"DARKNESS" and lived
to tell about it. I've been on daily medication since my
7 days of HELL, and
to this day. I take Prozac in the Morning and Stelazine
at night since 1988.
For a while the medication seemed to be the one
controlling me and some of
my actions, till I began my own experimentation with
them and as a result
some adjusting took place thus putting me on the
controlling side of things.
Side affects from the medication range from
sluggishness, increased sex
drive, lack of sex drive, restlessness, inability to sleep,
inability to
concentrate, lack of appetite, drowsiness, urination
discomfort or at times
uncontrollable, fatique, loss of memory, etc, etc, etc,
etc....
These are some of the affects of the medications that
I have to learn to
control over time, as well as those that I will probably
never be able to
control, as the saying goes "Some Control of your life
is better than None".
Since that time, I have taken up Tai Chi, First and
Second Level Reiki, and
am now a Reiki Master. The visitations continued a
few years later but in a
different manner. It comes by night as a stifling weight
on my chest with
no form, but the presence is very noticeable since it is
something that you
never forget, and this time in the form of attacks as
opposed to possession...
..and it's nothing that terrifies me since I fear it not, but
only see it for
what it is. The visits are swift but brief, and will
probably continue as long
as I am with the "LIGHT" since the "Darkness" is
attracted to the "Light" or as
the saying goes "Opposites attract".
There is GOOD and EVIL as there is LIGHT and
DARKNESS, but the only way to
know the difference is to have experienced one, or the
other or both...
In this case, there is a difference when it comes to the
"Bone-Chilling
Cold".
With the normal physical cold that everybody feels,
you start feeling cold
(i.e. freeze) from the outside in....
With this "Bone-Chilling Cold", you freeze from the
"Inside Out"....just
the reverse. By the time you are totally
"Chilled"....you are possessed
completely, not to mention the sense of a presence,
and a weight pressing
against you...whether you are sitting, lying down or
standing up...doesn't
matter. This all happens regardless of what the
temperature is outside or
around you.
There was lots of humor to try to conceal the learning
or the reality of the situation
since things didn't quite turn out the way someone or
Of course, no one expected me to tell my story either,
thinking that it was my secret.
In conclusion finally the definition
of - Turned - in my case which everyone is
dying to know the
definition and what really happended.
i really did - Turn - and my voice did change to that
of a Female in my case with
demonic possession of the mind which is
what you know as Mental Illness
not the whole body and
not the entire body deformed. i have fight sometimes
just be able to speak at all - struggling with mental
illness
Years later I took the intitiation test to be one of them
if you know what that means - the toilet test - and
passed twice when offered....
(one of those times offered by an ex-girlfriend...after I
left my watch in her shower there)
..more than 20 years ago or more maybe..
You are only guaranteed to resist being taken initially
during an attack when you believe
but nothing else is guaranteed afterwards in this case
including "not being turned"
or anything else...
and if you start yelling the "devil's" name
afterwards you are definately "Taken"...
and the rest of the "Turn" is up to you...
Of course the final finale, you feel a small burn
discomfort in your "butt" meaning that
someone had maybe tried to "poke" you,
never felt again, and the feeling of a presence near you
I don't remember passing ever passing out and
everything looked and felt the same
except the mental disconnect feeling
Yes I felt some twitching in the face but it quickly
ended and nothing changed in my face.
So that's the only "turn" i got and the
"Christ" reversed it and the rest was up to
me and that was all.
I thought about that and thought I might add this to
those who were a little confused.
So in the end I only had mental illness and pop a pill
for that so I did not get
"total reversal" of effects of possession but
that piece that remains which I live with is my proof
that it really
happened.
Later on I applied "Reiki" and almost
achieved "total reversal".
Yes, mental illness is new frontier to some now but
there was always darkness.
Later on the "bone-chilling cold" would
come back from time to time not full effect though
but never the possession and no twitching.
I can feel it coming on sometimes briefly then its gone
with no lasting effect.
It's been some time since the last
episode almost like a buzz a couple years ago I guess
maybe more.
Years later i did get a special visit of many from what
i know now was another demon after another battle...
They left me with another gift - "Dark Reiki" - after
touching me on my body somewhere -
i had a brief vision as i was there with the demon after
they asked me if i knew what it was and explained
briefly how reiki can be modified - maybe one
day I'll figure out how to use it...
My father died here a few years ago after taking care
of him and died sitting up... i went to look at him and
didn't know what to think or say....
Years later just recently, my mother also died here but
in my arms as i was tending her because she was so
so weak...
But this time i just watched her slip away, nothing
could have saved her as i later found out in terms of
modern medicine....
In either case i was powerless to interfere...
Yes of course i tried my reiki as i was trained but didn't
make a difference...
I guess i was being mocked but i took it well knowing
that I wasn't trained to do anything....or that
particular job for that matter...
The Spirit speaks to me again
Magnussa Phoenix - MPRUE REIKI
Early 2000 - woman in Austria - distant
I speak FLUENT. REIKI. ALIEN.
Later still early 2000 - Another Reiki - (invitation only)
from Germany maybe (the woman said spirit told her
she had to send it and all materials to me - distant)
A few other (Invitation Only) during that time,
some from spirits -
There was an internet site which offered - FREE REIKI
ATTUNEMENTS - to almost anything during that time
and I got everything on the Menu and have no idea
what all or many of them were -
MPRUE was amazing power -
Different types - different experiences - different
feeling -
Don't know which REIKI started which but clean body,
mind, soul free of medication is what it took to feel -
fasting so to speak - until you got used to it - then it
became a part of you - Yes -
I found a way to feel Spirit !
There was a local psychic I used to visit briefly
In 1991 or so until she just disappeared - said her gift
was just seasonal - she directed me to the "FAMOUS
VIRGIN MARY" Attraction in CONYERS, GEORGIA- not
far from where I was going to school at the time -
where I did visit at least once but felt nothing - she did
answered a few questions at the time but I didn't think
she was actually being truthful considering my life at
the time.
My first Reiki Teacher from 1995 or so (USUI REIKI) just
told me to practice but then refused to teacher me any
further when I requested a certain specific Reiki
training - KUNDALINI - told me I wasn't ready - he left
and I went solo then seeking another Teacher -
All I had then were strange coincidences but no
Real experiences. I was being prepared for the
possibilities
I'm also allowed to mention that the symbols below for
Mprue energy somewhat resemble the initiation
symbols for the "BRUNO GROENING" energy (for
which I was also attuned) if you look at them closely
but no they are not comparable and don't do the same
thing and not activated the same way -
"BRUNO GROENING" may have actually spoken to me
once or had a message for me - i keep getting the
feeling but don't totally remember and can only hint.
I do remember for sure during a meeting with the
woman who gave me the "RAYS OF LOVE REIKI
ATTUNEMENT" was briefly interrupted saying that the
"ASCENDED MASTER - ST. GERMAINE" had a
message for me (smiling) - "I don't remember the
message now
anyway" but I guess I didn't fully grasp what that
meant at the time either - the woman was local and
moved away at that time and I suspected there was a
lot she wasn't telling me from all the questions I was
asking her - she just wasn't allowed to answer but just
smiled at me - her name escapes me now - years
back for sure -
(She actually answered and was Speaking to me in
Spirit between those Smiles and I Couldn't Hear Her -
I couldn't hear/speak SPIRIT until just recently -
There are all different Types of Voices just like
anything else)
In conclusion, a Pretty woman denied me "MPRUE
REIKI" after getting the attunement, basically saying
that I didn't deserve it, and an individual approached
me afterwards, gave it back and also free to everyone
- can't deny anyone "GOD's GIFT" - Couldn't be taken
away - never lost it -
Cho Ku Rei
Spirit Said it's time to tell everyone what made me
BELIEVE in REIKI.
3 Reiki Experiences (of many)
I held a dead cordless phone in my hands (KTA
COMMUNICATIONS) and we couldn't get batteries
For those phones - 2000
I pulled the battery out (NICAD) and held it in my
hands for about a few Seconds and put it back in -
Phone turned ON - and I teared a little.
I worked with a female there who
looked at me and I didn't know if she knew What had
just happened, I never said a word - I just stared at the
phone that just MIRACULOUSLY came to life
Next experience, (MARTIAN COMPUTERS) fixing a
laptop and it wouldn't come on And I started taking it
apart and noticed the little
Laptop harddrive was sticking - would spin and stop -
and I put it in my hands briefly and put it back in the
laptop and it spun up and the laptop started booting
and working. all the
Files were intact. I just shook my head - that was
hours of Data Recovery not to mention Recertification
of a harddrive and I just done it in seconds
But the healing was temporary and After a little time
my little miracle ended and the original
Condition returned but at least I had got a chance to
witnessed the possibilities of the "HUMAN SPIRIT"
After that evening I was the bearer of bad news to
the individual that owned the laptop - I could have
easily made a backup of his files in seconds but I was
taken in by what I just witnessed. You never never
forget an experience like that.
Another experience (KTA COMMUNICATIONS) I drove
an old
Beat up RED VW SCIRROCO at the time and constantly
TINKERING
Under the hood and one day I pulled up somewhere
and think I had a dead battery in a
Parking lot. I looked around and just shook my head,
BAD LUCK always knew where to find me.
I thought for a second and said - "WHAT THE HECK"
- and grabbed the 2 battery terminals with my hands
for a little while and went back to start my
Car - and it powered right UP
All I could do was laugh and drive away
--
Before this, a Distant Reiki Attunement in 1999 had
healed most of my ailments allowing me to At least
function because I felt like a vegetable most of the
time and couldn't hold a decent job.
Later I attended a TUMMO REIKI CONFERENCE IN
ASHEVILLE - NORTH CAROLINA - maybe a 250 mile
trip in a RED MAXIMA - 2016
I booked a Hotel where I stayed alone for several days
I remember meeting my New Reiki Teacher there for
the first time who had travelled from INDONESIA
I remember joining a group of women standing around
telling their stories and I tried to explain what
happened to me after my Distant Reiki Attunement
that
my Teacher had given me and they all listened briefly
and then - They all walked away leaving me standing
there by MYSELF
- this is the reaction I got most of my life, even in
school - SPSU - people walked away from me
EVERYWHERE - I never said what I should have said
but stayed there as long as I could before heading
home and my teacher begged me to stay but I just
didn't have the heart.
Experience in "MARYLAND"
Once working for an Auto Parts Warehouse -
UCI. WASHINGTON before I got sick and had to
Be briefly committed to a MENTAL. HOSPITAL
after having a BREAKDOWN - 1987
- I was carrying some boxes on a upstairs of a
2 story setup and walking towards the front and
Down the front set of metal stairs right by the FRONT
- COUNTER and midway down the
Stairs I slipped and fell maybe 8 or 10 feet down at
least with the boxes I was carrying flying all over the
concrete floor and of course I landed on the concrete
floor - dazed - and layered there for a while. There
were many people on the front counter right in front of
me and they acted like they didn't hear the boxes fall
to the floor or me hitting the floor. No one turned that
I noticed
And I just laid there for a while. I could feel bruises on
my back since those were metal stairs but I could still
move without much pain and I eventually got up and
picked up the boxes - They were for the Front Counter
- and yes I was hurting - should have gotten
WORKER's COMP for that fall. Everyone carried on
and I said nothing of course - "What could I say ?"
I remember talking about going back to school when I
was there and there was another Black Guy there who
was already a student at BOWIE -
I know out of all those people someone turned and
turned back ignoring me - "Mostly all BLACK
PEOPLE" - and that was a lot of noise and a boom
Earlier - I worked at AMES LABORATORY - 1984
-DOE at IOWA STATE UNIVERSITY on a summer
internship while going to school. I was riding up the
street headed to work and was hit by a VW Beetle and
I flew over and landed on the pavement. The car just
kept going then came back I think
I was hurt bad but I got up, picked up my bike and
headed back down a hill where I lived off campus
I had broken ribs, etc., etc. and who knows what else
and they finally got an ambulance to take me to the
hospital where I was later released - badly bruised
and chest pains - still have the scars today -
I remember the job there - it was COLD inside and I
would go outside during lunch to warm up
and finally start wearing a coat or jacket to work.
I actually finished my project there after crashing the
system time after time - delicate CODING and it ran
displaying video and graphics on the screen -
Converted software - GKS - in Fortran Code To UNIX C
language. CLASSIFIED - maybe - I got an idea this
was how they got their funding -
I was never allowed to come back after applying the
following summer. The nice white older woman
(husband GAY) there who got me the job initially
wouldn't talk to me anymore. I used to work on her
lawn at her house for some extra money when we
had an altercation outside one day when she
suddenly grabbed something i was holding in my
hands saying i wasn't doing something right and
maybe attempted to show me - she never contacted
me again - i never went back -
she knew my Father - Alumni - I was probably
the only black person there except for football players
-
- she gave breakfast there that day - a bowl of
scrambled eggs after the altercation outside in the
kitchen overlooking her yard - i said i was leaving after
i finished eating and she would actually let me leave
and watched me thru that same window view (probably
watching me work before) i had already met her
Husband in the beginning - something else was
supposed to happen and it wasn't supposed to end
that way or even at all - i got word that i was supposed
to contact my father's adopted side of the family near
there (White for help)
who adopted him when he went to school there but i
never did but did odd jobs and made my own money
and paid my own way - i remember moving into an off-
campus dormitory MASHEK HALL there after finally
getting a room
and everyone had a loft to sleep in but me so i had to
build my own - i bought lumber down at a nearby
hardware store and needed help getting it back to the
dorm room so i asked one of guys (All WHITE) who was
in charge of my floor of the dormitory and he just
looked at me with a look with a few people watching
and said
plainly - YOU KNOW I CAN'T HELP YOU several times -
and he didn't have to explain himself - I was putting
him on the Spot with his Friends -
i ended up
hauling the lumber back myself pieces at a time and
finally building my loft - i met a another family whom i
worked for a summer since i didn't get the other job on
campus who was actually GAY who owed me a vehicle
as payment for the summer job but refused to give me
one so i basically left empty handed and left with just
the money i had remaining - he had a young ASIAN
wife whom i became friends and she became
somewhat ATTACHED as well - the 2 other people
knew each other and i had become close to my
father's adopted family especially the older woman
who was then a grandmother became somewhat
ATTACHED as well but never saw them again.
I was
told by SPIRIT that they wanted to experience what it
was like being with someone like me - SWINGERS
(First Black Experience) and just hesitated or Waited
too long - missed opportunities - i was clueless - they
let me know i was never going to touch that -
That Woman friend name is still on the Department
there (On the INTERNET) where i worked - Since then
they have been constantly writing me to come in for
Medical Scans for RADIATION years later even today.
- 2024-
I did finally go in recently after submitting my
yearly physical results from my doctor - the office
where they sent me didn't want to take my blood there
saying there was something wrong with the needle as I
watched them open/close the BUTTERFLY CLAMP
Thing each time for several different nurses (Stopping
The Blood Flow) - I played DUMB - and they sent me
home late November 2024 from a local clinic somehow
connected to the NASA space program in FLORiDA
from the lab paperwork I received beforehand.
